At these thoughts: my fellow man has given me these gifts: The decision whether or not to suffer is mine alone. Now, no one is king of the world and can perfectly arrange circumstances so that one face suffering and another not, therefore no one is exempt from what one doesn't deserve, pain, injustice, et cetera. People, however, often just by exercising their free will and operating in their own self-interest, generally treat one another fairly as best they can, so things more or less work out. And this is what people judged me worthy of: comfort, happiness, and contentment. They did so consciously, and with the utmost freedom to choose otherwise for me. This is the greatest gift I have ever received, on par with the unconditional love my parents feel towards me, a gift I was born with and one I hope I pay forward to all beings. My heart swells with gratitude. Another gift -- this one gives me some sorrow -- is that others have sacrificed and died so that I might have any life I choose, and may do with it whatever I please. I pray that all who have gone before me know paradise, and am comforted that any who disrespect that sacred gift will get what they deserve. One I always enjoy, and have since childhood, is the ability to see the beauty in every iota of perception. I'm privy to the coolest shit on Earth. The last is less a gift than a burden, but a sterling honor nonetheless, and it is this: my happiness has been hell for those who deserve such. I am not a gloater, and can't lord anything over any one. But it's an awfully important duty in the scheme of things.
These treasures were awarded me despite my greatest sins: failing to place enough faith in people, and inducing my own suffering despite the fact that those who wanted me to be content and well deserved to see me so. I have also been remiss as I have not taken refuge in the sangha as I say I will every Sunday morning -- may I have time enough to do better. I beg forgiveness, and pledge the following as a token of thankfulness: I will pursue my destiny with diligence and self-compassion, I will make better choices for myself, and will present the most authentic me I can to everyone I meet. My loved ones look me in the eye. They tell me to my face what they think of me. Moreover, I'm aware of what's said behind my back. May I ever keep these gifts in mind.
I crave everyone's indulgence, however: I must continue living moment to moment, one foot in front of the other, because unfortunately none of the abovementioned blessings are guarantees of a tomorrow. My karma is my karma, and I may yet face the ultimately unbearable -- who can know? But even if I have days when I have to fake it, I promise to fake it really well.